1. |
Intro
01:20
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Time'll trickle by until I'm there with you
It'll trickle by, until I'm there
In the thick of time I'll say I know, I know, I know, I know
That all that matters is you care
Time'll trickle by until I'm there with you
It's that fickle time I always dread
In the thick of time that's going on and on until I lose
The control of thoughts inside my head
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2. |
I Don't Know
02:09
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Do you remember the days
When you could go through a day
And never feel afraid
You could've done more
Do you remember the days
When you could go through a day
And you could honestly say
You feel hopeful
Do you remember the days
When you could go through a day
And never feel afraid
You should've done more
Do you remember the days
When you could honestly say
That your life is everything you hoped for now
The thoughts are running riot; they're taking the asylum tonight
And I'm so scared that they don't care if they take me alive
I thought they'd found a reason to stop when the seasons changed
Now I found out they won't ever be tamed
Do you remember the days
When you could go through a day
And never feel afraid
You could've done more
Do you remember the days
When you could go through a day
And you could honestly say
You feel hopeful
Do you remember the days
When you could go through a day
And never feel afraid
You should've done more
Do you remember the days
When you could honestly say
That your life is everything you hoped for now
Now all the different faces and all the different places you've seen
They come back up to remind you of how life could've been
Don't matter if it's better or if there's darker weather ahead
It's swirling like a cyclone inside of your head
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3. |
War With Ourselves
03:34
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Looks like we're at it again
I wanna let go
You think it's over, but it keeps on coming
Can't push it out of my brain
I wanna let go
But I end up in a free fall, free fall
And I know, I know, I know
I can't appreciate the words
I'm caged, I'm suffocating
I know, I know, I know
You don't appreciate the words
I know, I know
We're at war with ourselves with no submission
Fought one on one
A test of thicker skin
A war with my cognition that neither of us can win
We're at war with ourselves with no submission
Fought one on one
A test of thicker skin
At war with my cognition and neither of us give in
Looks like I'm right where I've been
I wanna let go
It's never over, I just keep above it
It's not an ordinary scene
I wanna let go
Now I'm welcoming the free fall, free fall
And I know, I know, I know
It's never better, only worse
The way I'm always thinking
I know, I know, I know
that there's always something wrong
It's wrong, it's wrong
We're at war with ourselves with no submission
Fought one on one
A test of thicker skin
A war with my cognition that neither of us can win
We're at war with ourselves with no submission
Fought one on one
A test of thicker skin
At war with my cognition and neither of us give in
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4. |
Anywhere But Here
04:35
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I don't know what I wanted
But I listened, it was calling for me, me, me
The next thing I was falling
Over questions, where I thought I should be, be
Won't stop chasing home, because I want it
But I just keep spinning round
There's nowhere to go
Won't stop chasing home, and I keep running
But I just keep slowing down
And I don't belong here now
Not to show you all up
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
But I don't wanna see you go
I'm not sure how it started
What I'm looking for is taking so long, long, long
Just 'cause the clouds are parting
Doesn't always mean that you'll see the sun, sun
But it's safe to say
I'm back where I've been before
The difference today
is I know I need you more, more, more
Won't stop chasing home, because I want it
But I just keep spinning round
There's nowhere to go
Won't stop chasing home, and I keep running
But I just keep slowing down
And I don't belong here now
Not to show you all up
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
But I don't wanna see you go
Were you there?
Did you even care?
Beyond Repair
Vacate me
Vacate me
I was there
Way before you cared
There's nothing here
Replace me
Replace me
Won't stop chasing home, because I want it
But I just keep spinning round
There's nowhere to go
Won't stop chasing home, and I keep running
But I just keep slowing down
And I don't belong here now
Not to show you all up
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
But I don't wanna see you go
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5. |
Messianic Complex
03:33
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The sourest grapes can make the worst wine
Can tip the scales on an alleged crime
Summoned for trial, held inside my brain
And I can never make the case I'm sane
Did I make a wrong move
Or was it you
Or is it in the back of my head
In the back of my head
That I won't wander blindly down a path that I'm led
It's in the back of my head
In the back of my head
That someone round this table ain't the person they said
It's in the back of my head
Let's raise a glass for the next toast
There's an old phrase 'bout who you keep close
I said it once, and then denied three times
I'm at my worst just when I think I'm fine
I'm pressing self destruct
This mind is fucked
There's something in the back of my head
In the back of my head
That I won't wander blindly down a path that I'm led
It's in the back of my head
In the back of my head
That someone round this table ain't the person they said
It's in the back of my head
It's in the back of my head
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Loose pairs of eyes on a lonely threat
Inspired demise on a movie set
Rewriting my sins
For the actors, anyone I've ever met
All waiting for another scene to start
Broken possessions or a broken heart
Holding on to things
Hoping to tell the real and dreams apart
But that's not the way the story goes
And it's different every time I fall
Even further down the rabbit hole
Perfect lies from the dying light
(Until distraction brings me home)
Replay a minute, hour, or a day
Take myself half a fucking world away
Falling through my sins
For one where I can have the words to say
Speculate on everything I've ever known
Shaking things that fixed themselves a life ago
Holding all I see
In the same playbook that I can't let go
But that's not the way the story goes
And it's different every time I fall
Even further down the rabbit hole
Perfect lies from the dying light
(Until distraction brings me home)
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7. |
...And Neither Do You
03:14
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When the answer to the question's that I never wanna leave
When the mind says die, but the heart says sleep
Takes a second to acquaint yourself with something very real
A reminder never needed; you don't get a second turn
When the mind says cry but the heart says learn
To appreciate the time while you've still got some left to burn
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
Not a movie, not a curtain call, not a fade to black
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
We'll all have a final second, then we're never coming back
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
In the moment, do you know that it's all coming to an end
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
And I wonder how it feels to know you'll never feel again
It's a side effect of living that you're always gonna die
And the more you grow, the more you ask why
You said and did the things the way you did, and never reconciled
So re-run the blurry shots from photographic memories
Ones that turned out good, some that look more bleak
Fold the corner of the picture that's the last you wanna see
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
Not a movie, not a curtain call, not a fade to black
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
We'll all have a final second, then we're never coming back
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
In the moment, do you know that it's all coming to an end
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
And I wonder how it feels to know you'll never feel again
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8. |
Waiting
03:31
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Never wanted me
Never thought to say it
Miss a chance to be anything again
Never wanted me
Never thought to say it way back then
Every second feels over-complicated
I play a part that feels strange to me again
All I seem to do is over-complicate it
Woah
And I know that I don't want to go
But I know that I can't take much more
(I've always been waiting)
And I know that I don't want to go
(I've always been waiting)
I don't want to go
Second chance to be more than just frustrated
Never wanna be so stuck in one place
Second chance to be more than what they say
If it's not too late
It only takes a beat to become what you've hated
If you let your heart pick up that pace
All I need to do is realise I hate this
Woah
And I know that I don't want to go
But I know that I can't take much more
(I've always been waiting)
And I know that I don't want to go
(I've always been waiting)
I don't want to go
I've always been watching and waiting for a sign in the night
I've always been watching and waiting for the sun to rise
And I know that I don't want to go
But I know that I can't take much more
(I've always been waiting)
And I know that I don't want to go
(I've always been waiting)
I don't want to go
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9. |
Inconsequential
02:49
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I'm writing another "hit"
Sure, I care what they think of it
I'm breaking down but it's good, 'cause the kids, yeah they love all this shit
Will anyone ever see?
Empty woods, the proverbial tree
Don't hear a sound, so I guess it's good I made this for me
I'm not the one on all the screens
I'm not the one who haunts your dreams
I'm not the one they wanna be
I fade in, fade out
I'm inconsequential
When nobody's interest piques
Is it time to admit defeat
No, wait, I've decided I've got some motivation this week
For a second, I think I'm a star
That's not the four letter word you are
But yeah, bask in your moment, it's seems to be all that you've done so far
I'm not the one on all the screens
I'm not the one who haunts your dreams
I'm not the one they wanna be
I fade in, fade out
I'm inconsequential
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10. |
Someone Else
02:54
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Shaking off all the thoughts when I feel the creeps
From the panic after panics, it's a daily routine
Drown it out, keep the doubts
Walking down the street is enough to feel drained
Watch the clock, to the dot, if it's real or not
Here's the crashing, start the lashing out at everything
Or withdraw, close the door, hide away from it all
It's enough to feel pain
Sometimes it feels like I'm not inside my brain
(Like someone else can pull my strings)
Set me up, pull me round, put me under the ground
(I can't escape)
Sometimes it feels like I'm not inside my brain
(Like someone else can pull my strings)
Set me up, pull me round, put me under the ground
(Stuck in this state)
Counting back the attacks, trying hard to keep track
When I leave me, barely breathing, and I feel like I've snapped
Shaking head, spinning legs, every part of this has stopped feeling strange
Laugh it off, in the crowd
Don't bring anyone down
Let the water keep on flowing until I start to drown
Staying tough, scrapping rough, just to keep your head up
It's enough to feel scared
Sometimes it feels like I'm not inside my brain
(Like someone else can pull my strings)
Set me up, pull me round, put me under the ground
(I can't escape)
Sometimes it feels like I'm not inside my brain
(Like someone else can pull my strings)
Set me up, pull me round, put me under the ground
(Stuck in this state)
Woooooah
Sometimes it feels like I'm not inside my brain
(Like someone else can pull my strings)
Set me up, pull me round, put me under the ground
(I can't escape)
Sometimes it feels like I'm not inside my brain
(Like someone else can pull my strings)
Set me up, pull me round, put me under the ground
(Stuck in this state)
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11. |
Haunting
04:49
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Let me in, oh let me in
We'll follow all the footsteps, down the roads I keep walking
I let you in, don't shut me out
I'm staring through the windows of the place I keep my doubts
Cut me open, take the memories
Always roaming on a weekend for how I got this way
Cut me open, take the memories
I'm ready to be saved
I'm ready to be sane
Let me in, oh let me in
Why is time a worthy reason to give up on good faith
Let me in, I'll block it out
Does a kid know it's not their fault, do they know they'll live with doubt
I crumbled into snowfall, I fell into the rain
I questioned if I was so sure I'd hear your voice again
And when the moment comes and you know the answer's no
The cold before don't feel so real; you've never felt this low
Cut me open, take the memories
Always roaming on a weekend for how I got this way
Cut me open, take the memories
I'm ready to be saved
I'm ready to be sane
This book started, like the last one
With a character in crisis, a role I was born to play
I use my lines as a catharsis
This story is the answer to how I got this way
How did we end up like this?
Find the memories, cut me open
Always roaming on a weekend for how I got this way
Find the memories, cut me open
I'm ready to be saved
I'm ready to feel safe
And I still miss you in November
The bonfire's not the same
The fireworks cry your name
I use my lines as a catharsis
This story is the answer to how I got this way
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12. |
The Fall
03:38
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Take a step back
You look like you're out on your feet
Sleep walking through a dream, you fall
You fall again
Take a rain check
The cloud that refuses to break
Stays further from the stars, you fall
You fall again
Oh, these moments in time
You fall for moments in time
You grow, but won't move on yet
You know you'll never forget
Never forget
Pick the haystack
As long as you're willing to take
To search forever more, you fall
You fall again
With your last breath
You tell me there's nothing to say
That's why you never talked, you fall
You fall again
Oh, these moments in time
You fall for moments in time
You grow, but won't move on yet
You know you'll never forget
Never forget
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13. |
In Between
03:52
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That's how this story goes
And how it ends
Or how it pauses 'til it starts over again
Count ones and twos
For better days
Before you had all the dark ones on replay
You wish that everything was like the start
Something inside of you says wishing's not enough
Now how you live's not what you did before
You're just a victim now of all that's in between
That's all you'll ever be
That's how it feels
Like you're living in your worst dreams all made real
Then something brings you back
You're back to life
Until the next time you feel something ain't right
You wish that everything was like the start
Something inside of you says wishing's not enough
Now how you live's not what you did before
You're just a victim now of all that's in between
You wish that everything was like the start
Something inside of you says wishing's not enough
Now how you live's not what you did before
You're just a victim now of all that's in between
So a voice that comes from nowhere says I don't know anything
And when the war kicks off within myself, alarm bells start to ring
I've got the messianic complex, and it leaves me on my own
A clean well lighted place inside my head, feels like my only home
I start to wish that I was someone else, and anywhere but here
But I feel so inconsequential, and I'm paralyzed by fear
I'm always waiting, but I'm haunted by the past that I've been through
Feels like I don't know how to fix myself, and neither do you
View from the platform isn't so bad, until you start the fall
And then the countdown's starting up again, 'til you re-live it all
You wish that everything was like the start
Something inside of you says wishing's not enough
Now how you live's not what you did before
You're just a victim now of all that's in between
('Til you relieve it all)
You wish that everything was like the start
Something inside of you says wishing's not enough
Now how you live's not what you did before
You're just a victim now of all that's in between
('Til you relieve it all)
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